excited + scared + it's all good

these are my two favorite prairie grasses. i always feel inspired staring at their unbelievable shapes and textures. (p.s. i'm sharing pics on instagr.am now. if you're using it too you can find my feed there. username: cursivedesign)

our month long (err. technically 33 days..) road trip around the country was so great. so mind blowing. so fantastic that it seems so difficult to even try to sum up. it's hard to even narrow down the pictures. i will post about it one day soon but for now my mind is still figuring it all out. we felt so lucky to be able to take that time to travel and explore so many beautiful spaces. lucky to have family and friends along the way and lucky to meet new ones. i will share that it is weird to be gone for a month. home doesn't always feel like the home you knew once you're back. maybe it's the expanse of time. maybe you've both changed and it doesn't feel like the same comfy pair of jeans anymore. or you don't recognize yourself in it anymore. obviously, it's amazing to see those you've missed and to catch up and share stories and to hear theirs. but. something. is a bit. off. it's taken awhile to feel and find all those rhythms and routines again. mostly, i've been focusing on finding new patterns + behaviors which seems to be working really well. we're also re-nesting a bit in the apartment and clearing out some clutter. that always helps to feel focused.

work wise i'm neck deep in new experiments. brand new materials i've never used before, new equipment, new vigor, new fears, new investments, bigger leaps, but with the same inspirations that i always seem to come back to. it's exciting and scary. but that's the combination of feelings i most often find myself in and drawn to. a couple days ago i was at a friends going away party as she left for grad school. i asked, "are you excited?" and she said, "yes, but also so scared and anxious." and i said "yeh, but what else is there?" and right after i heard those words leave my mouth i felt myself click back into something that felt right again.

i hope you've been finding yourself at some magical combination of excited and scared. i hope you've been feeling the comforts of home whatever and wherever they may be.

this weekend jon and i both have lots of work to do but i am absolutely commited to taking our new badminton set to the park and hitting some birdies around with him. i hope you have a great one!